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Uwaaahhh this was 10 hourss ;v; but I'm satisfied with the results, since everything was made by me, even the shifty looking snowflakes ehehehe

I've been feeling kinda down lately, but it's probably just my cold talking since I get easily depressed when sick ahaha. I put most of my deviations in storage- basically I feel like my art style has wayyyy too many inconsistancies in it and that actually bothers me alot. Stuff like how I do anatomy or how I shade and color. I think it's because I'm too easily influenced by my environment. I used to have a simpler way of shading because it was easier for me and I found it cute, but then after seeing soo many amazing pieces, I wanted to try doing more complex shading. And this fluxuated from time to time because I kept bouncing between complex shading and the simpler shading. And that combined with the changes in how I did eyes and anatomy, just became a jumbled mess...

i'm trying hard to find a way to jumble everything into something I'm satisfied with, and it came out to be this style of coloring, eyes, and anatomy. And I do like it, but there are still some things in it I'd like to change. Like for example, the eyes feel kinda awkward there in comparison to the rest of the pic, but maybe that's just me...

I may either upload a bunch of stuff in the next few weeks that may differ, or not upload anything at all until I find something I really wanna put on here. Either way, I'm working hard to find a steady style for myself, because I feel bad for letting you all see the inconsistancies.

And I feel like I should do this not only for myself, but for my watchers too. I've lost some watchers, and I think it's because they watched me for a certain style of art, that I've ended up trashing because I was disatisfied with how it came out, or because it didn't feel like me. And I feel like I've disappointed them. Because then I put myself in their shoes and see that it's not so fun to watch someone for art they posted, only to see they changed their style. And yes, art ventures are okay, but there's a difference between uploading something new to test the waters, and changing how you draw each time you upload it.

wow, I probably should've put this in a journal ;v;

anyhow, enough of my depressing vibes UvU Sorry for putting my internal battle in my deviation description :iconuhuhuhuplz: I hate getting colds, because I don't know how to sit down somewhere and rest, because I'm so...restless ahahaha. And the depression complex aside, I hate stuffy noses ;v; I feel like I'm going to suffocate in my sleep sometimes because of them XD not to mention I always seem to get sick when I'm supposed to go someplace, which keeps me from going. 

My mom is quite strict on what I do when I'm not feeling well ehehehe love you too mommy ;v;
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uwahhhhh this is so pretty :iconloveloveplz: The snowflakes and everything :iconyuiswayplz:

As for your style- Everyone gets upset about it some time or the other- I personally think that it's a good thing to be inspired like you're saying, but don't get too upset if you feel it's not right! ; o ;
No matter what- you're always going to improve- if you didn't draw bad things in the beginning, you won't be able to draw good things in the end! o ^ o

Even if you lose a few watchers, focus on drawing your heart out and improving, not making every piece perfect, and you'll be gaining hundreds of them a day! Don't let the number of watchers pressure you, how many people who click a button on your page doesn't tell how good an artist really is :iconyuihugplz: